Monthly Archives: September 2010

Goodbyes and New Beginnings

Tomorrow is the last day of my job.

A year ago this weekend I signed up for a job that was a year commitment. I’ve known all year that tomorrow, September 23, would be my last day.

In the past few months, as I have prepared for this ending, I was optimistic, excited about my future opportunities. As a young professional with a hell of a work ethic and a lot to offer, I was confident I would find a position that I loved if not with my current organization, but definitely with another.

As time slowly crept by, and opportunities came and went, I became increasingly anxious. Despite reassurances from some very kind (and knowledgeable) people, I had no job lined up. Last week, with my last day on the horizon, I slowly cleaned out my desk and wrapped up all of my projects. I recycled countless notes from meetings, ideas, agendas, flyers, that I at one time felt worthy to keep, yet now, I feel that they are not important. What was important to me, I quickly realized, was that after a year of working and putting my heart into my projects, I would be leaving my office, with no guarantee to return.

In the cubicles around me, people were shuffling around, busy with projects, deadlines, and meetings. I overheard important, passionate conversations. People were talking happily of their successes and disappointment with their challenges. Yet, there I sat, at my desk with nothing. No future job secured. I had nothing to do as of Monday, September 27th.

As I started this week, I decided I would leave on a happy note, not with Eeyore following me around and a cloud over my head. Instead, I would have a good week and not cry when colleagues stopped by my desk, sad to see me go. I would be strong, leave with my box of belongings, and celebrate my year at this organization with my colleagues I loved most. As difficult as this week was going to be, it had been a fantastic year, and it was time for a close.

Tuesday afternoon, one of my colleagues sent me an email: Job Offer.

Now, I have a few applications out there, and I am hopeful that the applications will turn into an interview and hopefully a job offer, but the offer would be at least weeks away.

And here I was, staring at an email of a colleague offering me a job –  a temporary job – yet a job. At first I thought, no, I should just leave and focus on finding permanent employment. Take a few days off. Walk Tahnee for two hours everyday.

But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that my promising job applications were not a promise of employment, and that in fact, at the end of October I could still be unemployed. I decided to take the temporary job, with the condition that I may leave for another permanent job.

Although I officially start my new job Monday, I got to start working on my new project today. And although it is at the same organization, working with the same people, I felt very excited, and I loved working on the new project. I no longer was referred to my old job title (which, after a year, started having a negative connotation…) and I gained a new level of respect. And although I know this is not permanent, I feel that this new (temporary) beginning has been just what I needed.

So tomorrow, when I go to work as my last “official” day in my old position, I will be happy for the experience I had, and not sad to be leaving. But, instead, I will be hopeful of my new beginning.

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Me and My Bed vs. Tahn

Ok. I have a situation. Tahnee is a bed hog.

Tahn has a clear and defined “side” of the bed, and is completely aware of it. When we go to bed, I tell her “your side” and in the past she would jump on the bed then walk to her “side” and lie down.

But, lately, she walks to the middle of the bed and then snuggles on my side, completely infringing on my personal space. Plus, it is still slightly summer weather, and frankly it’s hot.

Tahnee, in the middle of my clean bed. Actually, she is more on my side than hers...

For years, I couldn’t bribe Tahnee to snuggle with me. If I pulled her closer to me, she would grunt and the roll away. However, this summer despite the occasional heat, there was my black lab, with her fur coat, snuggled up right beside me. At first I was elated! Tahn is a snuggle bunny and finally snuggling with me!

But now, I am just annoyed. Not only is she invading my personal space, but she also goes off of her designed sheet she is suppose to lie on (to keep the hair and dirt off my other sheets and blanket). Tahn now lies completely on my side while her side is clean, and my blanket is dirty, stinky and covered with fur.

I know what you’re thinking. “Just don’t let her on the bed”. I know. I know. But, I really like her on my bed with me. Especially since I don’t live in the best neighborhood, it is nice to have a breathing, loving being next to me.

And, let’s just be honest, she loves it.

Ok, let’s be really honest. I love it.

What’s a Crazy Dog Lady to do? Well. Here’s my plan:

Rule #1: she must stay on her side.
Rule #2: if she violates Rule #1, she gets moved to her side.
Rule #3: if she violates Rule #1 and #2, she gets kicked off for the night…

That’s the plan. Updates will be provided on the status of this serious problem.

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10 Things I learned at Bella Vista

This past weekend, I accepted an invitation to go to my good friend’s parent’s house in Amador County. The view from the house was amazing, hence the name of the house, “Bella Vista” (beautiful view). The weekend was full of laughs, delicious food and excellent beverages.

All in all, we were treated like royalty. (By her parents).

In these past few days, I learned a few things during my time at Bella Vista:

1. Saving your money and waiting for your dream home is totally worth it. So often my generation (and the generations before me) have a sense of entitlement and no patience to save or wait for anything. At 21, I was taught by a company I worked for to: “buy your dream home and then everything else it will fall into place.” My friend’s parents bought the property and years later build their custom dream home and it is totally worth it!

2. There are still good, kind, funny, successful, educated men out there. Contrary to the constant evidence saying otherwise, I was reminded for the first time in a long time that there are good men in the world.

3. Having my own, private space is priceless. I had my own room separate from the rest of the house and it was so restoring to go into my own little space and not be bothered.

4. Napa County is NOT the best place to go wine tasting in CA. I had no idea there was a wine country in Amador County, and I especially didn’t know how great it was!

5. The air is different in Amador. When I left for my heaven on earth on Friday afternoon, The Roomy was doing a home improvement project that involved boiling paint off of the hardware of the house and the toxic fumes were really getting to me. I had a pretty intense headache when I left, and about half way to my destination, the air circulating in my car changed. Dramatically. In a short amount of time, I started feeling much better, and my headache was gone.

6. The city is much louder than I thought it was. At night, when I went back to my little private bungalow, it was so quiet, that I almost couldn’t sleep. I’m used to hearing cars go by, a frequent siren or two, and occasionally a neighbor dog barking. At Bella Vista, the night was so dark and so quiet it was incredibly foreign to me. It must be way people love camping so much (sans the dirty, uncomfortable floor you have to sleep on, lack of showers and lack of refrigerator).

7. Animals treated well truly taste better. If you know me well, you know that I care about animals and although I am not and most likely will never be a vegetarian, I want the animals I do eat to be treated humanely, being free to roam and fed grass and not corn. January 1st of 2010 I gave up pork in protest to how poorly the pigs are treated. I vowed to only eat free range, grass-fed pork, which is extremely challenging to find (and very expensive). Except for a handful of times, I have resisted the urge to eat pork. (I usually ate pork at a work function where it was served and I did not want to be rude). The host and hostess of Bella Vista buy all of their meat from this amazing butcher, Swingle (http://www.swinglemeat.com/). The meat (especially pork) was unlike any other meat I have ever tasted. The constancy (especially the bacon) was different than the other bacon I have eaten. It made me feel happy that I could enjoy my meal knowing the animal was treated with respect and dignity.

8. Munnerlyn’s is the best ice cream in the Sacramento area. As a fan of KCRA’s A List, and especially of ice cream, I was excited to eat at the Creamy voted to be #1 on KCRA’s A List for this year. One word about this ice cream: unreal. (http://bit.ly/bAC0WP)

9. Not having cell reception all weekend was a blessing. I did not have cell reception for most of my weekend. Shortly after I returned home, my cell phone rang and instantly I was offended at the noise. Surprising, I did not miss being interrupted, and was slightly sad that I was back to my normal life.

10. I missed my dog way too much. Unfortunately for my good friend and other guests staying this weekend, I spent many conversations talking about Tahn. Since she stayed home with The Roomy, I was away from her for 3 nights and almost 3 days. This proved to be incredibly difficult because I miss her so much while I am at work during the week, and I get so happy to have the weekend with her. But, since I did not have this weekend with her, I missed her very much.

Yes. I know. Crazy Dog Lady.

So, if you are interested, here is the photo roll from the weekend. Enjoy.

The welcome I got when I arrived at Bella Vista. So wonderful!

Grapes at a Vineyard in Amador County.

Amazing view from the house.

my own personal bathroom- and sink!

Their full bar.

The theme of weekend was definitely wine.

Fresh popcorn? Yes, please.

Oh, you know, just a personal, home theater.

THE view. Again.

Came home to my Tahn. So sweet.

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Jumping right in

I thought it is ironic that in my first day as a blogger, particularly a blogger about my dog Tahnee and myself, it would make sense that she got sick (again).

Tahnee (or, who I refer to as Tahn) has a very sensitive stomach. Ever since she was a baby, she has been frequently getting sick, and I would promptly put her on her bland diet of choice: cottage cheese and rice. (And, she ALWAYS has cottage cheese on her nose after she is done eating- even now as a 3 year old).

Tahn as a baby with cottage cheese on her nose

Tahn’s episodes of an upset tummy always was mended by her bland diet and with in a few days, she would be back to her old self.

Back in April of 2010, Tahn decided to go into The Roomy’s (my roommate’s) bedroom when she was left alone. While hanging out on her bed, she discovered a travel size container of Advil, and decided it would be a good idea to chew on the bottle. Subsequently, while chewing, 3 pills of Advil came out, and she ate them right up.

I came home quickly after this happened, catching her in the act of chewing the bottle. Consequently, she became very sick (Advil is extremely toxic for dogs) and in the next two weeks, she was in and out of the Vet Hospital and took a variety of medications.

Flash forward to today. I was at work, returning to my desk from a job interview (cross your fingers!!), to discover a series of panicked texts from The Roomy, telling me Tahn is crying (whining) and puking. Well, Tahn always cries when her tummy hurts her, so that did not concern me. What concerned me was, that she was she puking. I couldn’t think of any reason for her to be sick. (Usually, in the past, her sickness comes out the other end).

After a call to her amazing Vet, I decided to leave work at my lunch break to check on my baby girl. Tahn’s energy was lower than normal and definitely not herself. I stayed home rest of the day and have followed the doctor’s orders of cottage cheese and rice and Pepcid AC.

So, yet another day of being a Crazy Dog Lady, leaving work to take care of her.

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