Everyday I come home for lunch and hang out with my sweet Tahnee. During my short break, I let her out into the backyard and let her roam around sniffing for rackety-coons and other such vermin. Tahn says that if she ever came across said trespassers, they sure would be sorry. But, until then, she is satisfied just smelling them.
Today was a normal day. I came home, pet Tahn for a few minutes, then opened my back door to let her out while I made myself lunch. Since it was such a nice day, I left my door open so she can come back inside whenever she wants.
And usually, after five minutes or so, Tahn meanders back inside.
But today, I realized I was done with eating my lunch and Tahn still hadn’t wandered back in. Not totally uncommon for her to take her time, so I got up to see what she was doing.
When I approached my back door I saw a straight shot to my back gate – and it was wide open. Sometimes, in a huge storm or on a particularly breezy day (like today), the gate flies open (it’s not that secure…)
And usually, on such occurrences, Tahn doesn’t even notice it is open. She is so
aimless present-in-the-moment that doesn’t realize it and goes about sniffing the yard.
Upon first glance of the yard I did not see Tahnee.
I quickly walked outside, calling for Tahnee.
Upon second glance of the yard I did not see Tahnee.
“Tahnee!! Tahnee!!!!” I started yelling. Louder and louder since she did not appear.
I said to myself, “don’t freak out until you have something valid to freak out about.”
Upon third glance of the yard and I still did not see Tahnee, I was running towards the open gate.
My first thought was, “OhmyGod. This can’t be happening. OhmyGod. OhmyGod. OhmyGod.”
My second thought was, “I will have to call my boss and tell her I am not coming back to work until I find my dog.”
I really started to panic.
“She just has to be okay. She can’t be under a bus somewhere. OhmyGod. This can’t be happening!!!!”
Since I live in between two very busy streets, it is very probable a car would hit her. Or a bus. And since Tahn is
aimless present-in-the-moment dog, she tends to be unaware of her surroundings.
As soon as I passed the open gate, there was Tahn. She was sniffing a pile of dirt in the alley where I believe a homeless man sleeps occasionally.
I know what you are thinking. You expect I would be full of joy.
“Yay! Tahnee!! I am so happy you’re okay! I love you so much!!”
But, instead, I was pissed.
“Why didn’t she come when she was called? What the hell was she thinking?!?!”
I know what you are thinking. You think I am a jerk. Well, I guess I when I have such a great dog who always comes when she is called even though she is a
aimless present-in-the-moment dog, I expect that if she doesn’t come it’s because something is seriously wrong.
Fortunately, nothing was wrong. Nothing at all. Tahn is just a
big huge idiot sweet little girl in her own world, and she was just fine.
I have to say I sure was thankful for her when I came home from work tonight and she greeted me at my door. I was so happy when after she ate, we played chase in the backyard. And, I am especially grateful to have her lying next to me right now.